Scribbling Useless Thoughts
1. DO OR DIE??
A sin half lived
A joke half said
A laughter half heard
Do I complete it?
Or just leave it?
Does it make a difference, anyway!
2. BARRENNESS
Thoughts flowing into my mind
Frighten me at times
As floods in the thick dark woods
They fill me, choke me
But, blankness of the mind, lack of
Thoughts, frighten me more
As the barren landscapes that breed
Nameless spirits from unknown shores.…
more so, for the Barrenness 'She' is!
These two useless thoughts occured to The Certain Kind of Woman during the course of her poetry workshop. I just leave it your judgement.
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Some kind of fear and sadness deep down in your heart. Do or Die of course will make a difference. Keep going with the guidance of divine.
Your second poem is very touching. Hope you are doing good. 'HE' is listening. God Bless. Hugs!
In answer to the top one, I always think you should complete thoughts. It helps to work things through.
Blankness of the mind, that sounds like me half of the time, its a nice post!
"Barrenness Devika"--you must be royalty! As such, you are ruler of your mind's landscape and all its comings and goings...
Blankness, is not absence of thought, it is simply an interlude where you can enjoy the feeling of just "being"...
the first one is deep
I like both.
There's nothing useless of your thoughts - I agree with V66.
To be void of thought is something everyone needs for it puts one in touch with the Inner Self and allows one to hear the sweet whisperings that the Higher Self has to offer - it is the start of knowing the "peace that passes all understanding." We need thought to carry out our daily activities but it needs to be balanced by a few minutes of utter stillness or our lives become an emotional roller coaster.
Your words are most thought-provoking - they are not at all useless.
Hi!
i thank you all!
i would have loved to reach out each one of you separately as I do always.
but, there are many earlier ones left to replied, and the days work is on me..
this is my fast response to all, but each of your words take its special place in me..thank you for the soothing that each of you offer...
i feel blessed to have friends like you...
rest all perhaps, these thoughts, our problems, we ourselves..shall pass...may be as Norman Peale says 'water under the bridge'..its just the moment that becomes unbearable...
thank you, one and each of you...
lovingly,
devika
They reflect a very intense underlying and ongoing thoughts!
I wonder why it is that you have underrated them by calling them useless thoughts!
Rakesh
Rak,
yeah..intense thoughts they were, until i made it public, and i had all these comments here..
but calling them useless at the first instant-- was perhaps my way of gaining strength..:-)
wishes!
devika
If you are not annoyed by any of those, complete it. If annoying, abandon them. Either do or die.
It is always good to have a blank mind, but, knowing that the mind is blank itself is a thought. So, Can the mind ever go blank in awareness? Lack of thoughts, yes, i agree with that :). Nothing is useless in this universe. What is useless now, can become very useful later, and vice versa.
Hi Cyclop!
thank you for your thoughts on those 'useless thoughts. May be you are right..every thought has its role at a point in time...but, for me those are already *useless*, in the sense i'm back...knowing it doesn't make much difference either way -- Doing or Dying.
and knowing that one is not alone :-)
jokes, laughter are all back -- the sin, that's life itself -- i'll fight it out head on...
Not for anyone else, my friends including you seem to have made be stronger :-))
now this 'Not a Post' will remain as a testimony for how my friends changed me overnight...for me while sribbling and publishing it -- i was just trying to relieve myself...now it seems all resolved..:-)
Blog is a wonderful land :-)
thanks!
wishes
devika
Don Juan Matus used to say that freedom is frightening, but even more frightening is a life void of spirit...
Hi Borut!
what a juxtaposition of my 'useless thought'!! :-)
(kidding, of course)
joke aside, yeah when experienced at the elemental form..perhaps life speaks the same to all, equally...
thanks for coming,
wishes
devika
The first one was something that i liked
i think these are valid thoughts, and ones to ponder on... i like them both.
Everybody has been commenting on the depth. On the surface, I would like to say ...
yes, to the listener, it makes a difference when a thought, idea sentence is left unfinished.
My daughter recently said to me.. ma, finish your sentence.. because I was tending to drift off inbetween.
For the doer, the thought is enough but not to the one who sees it.
2) isnt emptiness what we strive for .. in meditation classes and more? :-)
Don't get who the Barrenness she is?
thoughts
falling upon paper,
our lives in ink.
the two poems were good..but i loved the first one..an introspection..!!
:)
Thoughts flowing through my mind
def. frighten me at times, but as
you apty state in your poem, no
thoughts, or all safe thoughts would be boring and not a life
in techni-color.
A sin have lived, hmmm - should one
complete it or not - it depends
on the emotions and how much
I or someone else would be hurt.
Laughter half heard, must be
answered with more laughter.
Thought-provoking poems, CKW.
Hi!
The thoughts have gone past me, perhaps…yes, may be those could have been or are valid…but, I feel I myself a bit at a distance from it…
But I think your replies – those I have responded and the others not responded – have deeply helped me in getting back on track…
So let me thank you, especially those I have not responded to earlier..
Thank you Rakesh, Polona, Kallu, Paul, Vinu and Cynthia..
Thank you so much for your kind reading and comments, especially Paul and Cynthia, whose deeper reading struck a chord…
But to Kallu, I think I got to talk, …I am doing that, separately..
Wishes!
devika
Hi Kallu..
Yeah, Kallu- I have left those thoughts to the readers’ judgement ---and your comment from the surface is also valid.
But perhaps, to me I was thinking at a certain depth that some of the readers have tried to see…or seen. Anyway, that may not be too relevant now because the whole thought is a passé…but still I know it is passé only to come back again at some point in time later, with what force I do no know..
At that point may be these responses from my readers will be guiding me I suppose --and I go forward with the understanding that it doesn’t make much of a difference either living or dying….rather in living lies the process of dying…and then I know tat I am not alone in that quandary –that makes a lot of difference….
Now, your reading on the surface – you are definitely right, on the surface of it..But I too feel that the need for completing a sentence to a listener is important, especially if there is a listener.
You got a responsibility to complete your thought to a perceiving mind…and between a mother and daughter, there would never be a contra-opinion –
But being a teacher – a passion that I pursue as a pass time for no consideration, other than the attention and learning by the children – I often find asking myself, here in Delhi --- ‘does it make a difference?’— i'm talking not about just completing a sentence or a lesson, even the full course of teaching…today’s youth make you feel so, badly…I teach teenagers and I go into a bit of moral science, along with physical science..:-))
Yet I feel, teaching is my responsibility…as a discerning elder…at times, I should say!
And on Emptiness – it becomes a positive source of the spirit– that's perhaps what we call mediation. There, it is about throwing out negative thoughts and fears, and creating a void to fill it with positive energy ….
But in certain times emptiness is negative, killing the spirit kind of void, where every negativity as what I say ‘nameless spirits from unknown shores’ roam in your empty mind …it could be or lead to delirium …and isn’t that killingly bad?
Now, who the Barrenness she is? I may upset you here..but please do not put up a sad face or a sorry face…I have had my share of such faces already and to me its an acceptance that I've made of my destiny, before turning to publish my thoughts…
Kallu, it is me -- Devika --- she is childless at 40. But she surrounds herself with children – not just one or two…in bunches ….and she snatches every other opportunity to pass on her love to children..a wink, a smile, a little talk, a small little joke – its so much laughter then ….and Devika, who is not the real mother of them can love them so positively without being possessive about them…so does it make a difference, anyway..
to me I feel – it doesn’t make any difference anyway…
but I choose to do - complete my destined role and task…to the best of my ability….
Only that at certain times of emptiness of the mind, things aren’t that easy…and writing these thoughts become my state of meditation...a process of emptying..an I feel blessed to have these new friends who read me and comment on it..mostly positively...when I say 'positively,' it does not imply 'agreeing' with me...
So Kallu, my new friend here -- a mind in which I have seen a reflection of myself the most recently --has got the cat out of the bag :-))
To me, perhaps that was needed, in a way….
Thanks!
See you soon there, Kallu
Wishes!
devika
Your last comment reveals a lot. There is a tinge of sorrow, wish I could help you some way or may be share?. :)
Hi Indrani!
who asked you to be here?? (just kidding, mera yaar)
anyway, those are some 'useless' thoughts..which may or may not remain...
it all about a magician called 'Time'...
thank you for your kind mind...i had always felt it...but i think i'm past seeing my life as a 'sad tale'...
we can always share, but not my sorrow...there i'm a bit selfish:-)
this post-- sometimes these days i feel i shouldn't have posted at all...but that night was unbearable.despite gaining some strength by putting the prefix 'useless'........anyway some friends are always available to support..God-send i feel about them....and definitely you i'm so happy you -- my 20 years lost friend-- was among the first to reach out to me on this corridor..
thanks Indrani!
wishes
see again...
devika
I think cats don't come out of the bags. They just stay there quietly..!! :)
i neither want to judge you through your poems nor your thoughts Nor to speak on the subject you wrote.
I liked the abstract poem . Abstract things are beautiful at times.
If i hadnt let you know who recommended me your page - it is venus who had commented in top.
Hi KS,
yeah, i know Venus as Mary Das..we have email contacts :)
and here, i like the level of distance you keep with the writer as you appreciate/question the aspects...
thanks for the time here..
will see you there over the weekend
wishes,
devika
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