Wednesday, September 24, 2008

When I look at you


‘I shall come to see you’
You said.

Did I say?
Please do.

Let me add,

I wish to walk the roads,
The lanes
I’d walked alone
All these years
With you, again

I wish to see the skies
The clouds
I’d missed sight of
All these years
With you, again

I wish to smell the breeze
The air
I’d just let off
All these years
With you, again

I wish to taste the rains
The rivers
I’d let flow off
All these years
With you, again

I wish to hear the seas
The silence
I’d lost far-off
All these years
With you, again

I wish to feel the earth
The sun
I’d ditched par
All these years
With you, again

But,
When I look at you

I’d put my goggles on


So our eyes
Shall not meet

To claim
Any lost love,
or
Our lives.


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57 comments:

Kat said...

mmmm... another piece from the jigsaw puzzle you're weaving..!!! waiting curiously to see the final pic of ' a certain kind of woman' :)

I liked those last lines... sets the imagination on fire..!!!

Webradio said...

Hello Devika !

Surprenant comme post...
A plus tard...

Rakesh Vanamali said...

Isn't it so much of a pleasure to re-live the days of childhood, where elementary things such as the sunset, evening games, endless conversations and so on were a source of immense pleasure?

Your well-written lines took me back a few years!

But then......are these lines addressed to someone special ;)

Janice Thomson said...

Love the twist at the end! I agree with you Devika - let me relive all those memories but with no strings attached. Well done!

Devika said...

Kat:
Even I'm waiting for 'her' final picture..by the time it gets clear it would be time to leave the 'stage' :-)
Happy that you liked it!!

Webradio:
Oh, Surprise visit again..thanks!
I was just searching translation for the French words you said..
I get 'Surprenant comme' as 'surprising as' but with 'post'? how does it go?

'A plus tard --I know. See you later..
You make me learn a new language..:-)
France had remained an dep interest, so I'll learn and read your blog someday.
'A plus tard :-)

Devika said...

Rak:
Absolutely..reliving past becomes a pleasure at times..though they say, shed your past, live the moment!

hey, how would one who abandoned me all these years be 'someone special'? ssshhh, my husband may drop in anytime :-))

Devika said...

Janice,
Thanks for coming :-)
I am so happy you liked it.
see more of you drinking the moon :-)
Love those so much!!

firebird said...

I am curious about what you would really choose if this was offered...

Otherwise why let yourself be tempted by dangerous emotions?

Perhaps you never would dare..is that why you put a question mark after "did I say?"

This poem has some lovely strong feelings...and sadness.

J. Andrew Lockhart said...

powerful memories - ones that never will leave you. the ones I love - good or bad. they make the present "real".

Keshi said...

ty for visiting my online home Devika..I love ur name too :)

This is a beautiful piece with alot of sad memories behind it. It brought back flashes from my past...yes, it still hurts. But sometimes some dreams in our lives need to end up as just dreams only...for then only we shall SEE clearly. And its always for the good.


*HUGZ* we all hv tasted lost-love hvnt we.


Keshi.

Salil said...

Devika,

Roads are dug up
Skies are ozone-holed
Breezes are oncoming cyclones
Rains are acidic
Seas are polluted
Earth is not livable anymore

I think you guys should just chat on the internet :-)

Cheers,
Salil

PS : Is that a Rayban?

Devika said...

Oh my Firebird!

You are a fine writer I always felt..& You read me so well :-)

For those first two lines -- Isn't
love 'dangerous' too, at times. Treading the terrains, I have slipped myself a few times..Do I forget that?

The third --
'Perhaps you never would dare'..
there you position the nail right. Nait it! I would never dare..

But then, did someone offer me anytime? :-)

Yeah, sadness envelopes me...many a while....

See you more :-)

Devika said...

Hi Andrew!
I like the last 'little' philosophy in your comment :)
thanks so much for coming!

Devika said...

Oh Keshi! you came!! Nice to see the bright Lilly bloom in my garden as well :-)

'for then only we shall SEE clearly. And its always for the good,' – How do I agree more with you? and if we let God's scheme work on us, its finally for the good. I strongly believe...

Yeah, we all’ve…an afterthought -- Is love ever lost? we only lose people, faces; no?

Its the first time some one say, HUGZ!
It makes me really happy, HUGS :-)
(HUG is just universal, but I love the British way with words)
see more of you :-)

Devika said...

Hi Salil!

Kat said some time back 'poets have a licence to kill'

But, you seem to know how to ‘kill’ poets, If I may call me one!! haha

I knew you would bring a funny twist…but that was really good!

'I think you guys should just chat on the internet' -- Do you hack, too?? :))

PS : ‘Rayban’? – I am a Gandhian in my accessories..Goggles --I’m yet to get one. Because, would I ever put on one -- You get something there??

Mampi said...

Is it for the lack of commitment that the eyes wont be permitted to meet? Is it a scare of the unknown? Where does love stand in all this mess of wishing?

Devika said...

Mampi:

If poem is dissected it is lost..but you seem to raise some serious questions.

Love for that face is Lost.The 'Love' remains ..relives in me alone...so No commitment too to any one than me...

and, on wishes -- how does one walk the same roads again, see the skies one missed et al again...its all so changed. it was about reliving the past.

Goggles -- yeah, I fear if eyes are let to meet again it would begin to claim....I don't want that in my wildest dreams...

Does it make some sense?

Devika said...

Mampi:
Taking your questions so seriously..i forgot to thank you!
Thank you and see again :-)
devika

Keshi said...

hey tnxx for the warm WC Devika :)

yes..the love isnt lost..just the times...

*HUGZ* I love hugging :)

Keshi.

Devika said...

Yes Keshi..you add more to it...not even the people, face, just the times! thanks!!
see you :-)
HUGS!
Devika

Amalendu said...

hai...see I trailed you from Khalida...to Ice cream Vendor...to five years in prison ...till here...it is so nice to read which is so simple and you keep feeling the words as you go on....lovely write devika....

Devika said...

Oh Amalendu...
Thanks so much for coming...Its an honour highly valued :-)

And, I am happy that you liked it..I liked the way you said the trace too...

I shall be one regular visitor there for not just the new ones..would love to read your past ones a s well...today I was just on the opening page...

by the way, the British woman is Mary Taylor...
I lost the copy of that book..but I still remember the cover had a haunting image of the lady, at the prison door...hopelessy looking outside, her fingers holding the bars...I had been searching for a copy since long...not been succesful..

cyclopseven said...

Goggles...shud try that and see if it works. Interesting:)

Devika said...

cyclop:
Oh, Welcome! Thank you for dropping by and the interesting comment..
Surprised to know someone has been 'inspired' to try :-)
Goggles do 'odd' jobs too! 'be aware' or 'beware (?) !! :-))
anyway, thanks, thanks again for coming...
i will see more of you at yours!

Rushabhh Gandhi said...

:( :( :( :(

the image used here was fantastic....

And poetry was good coz it was strong enough to bring me back where i dont want to land......

Devika said...

Hi Rushabhh!

Welcome! Thanks so much for coming...and letting me know you liked it...the picture credit goes to the maker, I was just lucky to source it right..

& I am so glad that it was strong enough 'to bring (you) back where you didn't want to land......'

I am forty..and at times wished to start afresh with life...But then life offers 'lessons' such as lost-love to set it on track...but love is never a bitter lesson! you are too young to be confused so...:-)

Live to Love..and Love to Live!! You would know what should not be done...

its not any advice, just an observation...

Wishes!!
thanks and see you again..

CherryPie said...

Very beautiful writing :-)

Devika said...

Oh hi Cherry!

I was just at Bloghounds..to copy the logo and blogroll..and i have your comment already...

Thanks you so much for coming and the kind appreciative comment!

see more of you at your place and here too..

devika

polona said...

well, i'm late for the party but have no less enjoyed your poem.
i feel some deep emotions, wonderful memories and a certain kind of sadness in it...
beautiful

Devika said...

Hi Polona!

Even I was missing you much...and then took time to see more of you there...and came to the 600th...I had seen it before, but just passed by thinking it could be someone else...

In that photo I could see high mindedness, and here in your sketch that accompanies your name nobility

and then I see the two are synonyms of Magnanimity...

'certain kind of sadness' -- you get a part of me Polona...

I am so happy that you liked it..thanks, will keep seeing you again...
devika

The Whisperer said...

'When looking through googles', one loses sight of the truth.. but, perhaps, it is not you that's using the wrong googles!

PS-> I said I would come! Here I am!

Devika said...

Hi Whisperer:

So good to see you here :-)

I just know that my goggles cannot afford to be wrong.

Your 'whisper' isn't that clear though...A kind of riddle, as in your whispers there...

thanks you, see more of you there...
devika

The Whisperer said...

Googles have two sides.. your own.. and another, reflecting your gaze, that is not your own..

Devika said...

Oh Yeah, now your 'whisper' is clearer :-)

But that keeps me wondering how do I own the reflection (the reflecting side) too..so that those last lines still work?

thanks anyway, whisperer...:-)

see you there, sometime soon..

Kai C. said...

beautiful....thanks for stopping by....
how are you doing? i've been fine...just turn 24!:)

Devika said...

Oh Hi Kai!

You came..so happy I am! :-)
and happy to know you liked it..thank you!

I am fine Kai, these days a wonderful time in my life!
and I know you are not just fine..dancing in the moonlit floor...loved it :-)

and knew you were in your early twenties...so you turned 24 recently? A Happy B'day..on your 25the let me know before hand :-)

At 24, you should be looking straight into the eyes, with out a goggle and claim your love, Kai!

I am forty, married with a kind husband (loving - any husband is, I think)-- so you know why I cannot claim past-love anymore. 'With Kindness I'm most content' -- not my lines though..a poetess from my ountry (Kamala Das) wrote in on of hers...and I 'feel' it....

that was a long one!
staying indoors alone most of the while, i live talking :-)

see you again there..singing, dancing and much more...
devika

MAN IN PAINTING said...

@devika
"googles"
i liked them..
i liked the black and white shades..the twist was very very interesting..
memories rest in some mysterious dark corners..like bats..upside down..
but when they reach us they carry fragrance..want to go back but never to ghost towns
but for happiness..you don't need real places..
dreams too can make us happy..
happiness is important..
take care
MIP
updated

MAN IN PAINTING said...

As usual "googles" i posted is wrong
pardon...
lol

MIP

enchanted illusionz said...

there is som secret joy too amidst all de pain dat u hv wen de oter is no more der. the joy of beingg alone....yet , v cnt b sure weter v wld go bak if de 1 calls again...haa..best 2 wear goggles.

beautifully written....i hv de sam wrds 4 som1 too....do u mind if i borrow ur wrds someday. shall pAy u ur royalty too..he he

Crafty Green Poet said...

I really liked the ending of this,

The Whisperer said...

You cannot own a relection that is not yours. It is like echo. Once it leaves your mouth, sound just becomes part of nature, playing among mountain peaks..

kouji said...

fascinating lines and story. :)

Devika said...

Hi MIP,
Was missing you..any way the party isn't over :-)

I am happy that you liked the goggles (yeah pardoned for the usual googles..Whisperer also used it so...its okay), the shades and the twist..

memories like bats..upside down -- liked the allusion..

happiness is important..I agree, but being at peace with sadness comes easy for me..and then I am happy :-)

anyway, thanks for coming MIP
see you again!
devika

Devika said...

Hi Illusionz!

Welcome! Thanks for coming and the interesting comment, though a bit hard for me (an old British English disciple) to decipher it...

Feel happy that you liked it and would want to borrow it ...I'm only happy to give you free rights for using it vocally..but please be sure, you stick to its original accent..not the way you said the comment, okay :-) lets avoid such amputation..

and by the way, if you plan to use it in writing..pay the royalty for a social cause that you feel worthy. I am serious there ;-)

thanks anyway, for coming ..
if you plan to come again, please comment in the normal English...its a request..

see you again
devika

Devika said...

Hi Crafty Green!

Welcome, I feel honoured that you came. Thank you.

I am happpy that you liked the twist here as i liked it there...didn't suggest there for obvious reasons :-)

Thanks and see more of you there, here too!
devika

Devika said...

Hi Whisperer!

I know dear, that was why I was wondering how to make the last lines work still ..I said I cannot afford it otherwise..

But your comment gives a relief...if reflections , as sound, becomes part of the nature..how would someone (me or that other) claim that it was mine?

Now, if something still remains to make a claim..I have only one option..to rewrite the first lines as:

"'I shall come to see you’
You said.

Didn't I say?
Please don't."

and sleep over it! lol

thanks for bringing the story to its finality :-) I enjoyed it fully...

see you there!
devika

Devika said...

Oh! Hi Kouji!

thank you so much for coming and the comment :-)

and am glad that you found it fascinating..

I just read your latest there at yours,
will visit often..
and see more of you

devika

Vinz aka Vinu said...

nice post..first time here...
loved those last lines..!!

:)

Deb Acle said...

Hello Devika

This is such a powerful poem. You sum up so excruciatingly the power of memory and the essential egotism of romantic love. I assume this is about romantic love - genuine love doesn't run away from the beloved and hide.

Deb

Devika said...

Hi Vinu!
thank you so much for coming...
I seen your name at Andrews...I think..

nice to have you here..and thank you so much for the comment! :-)

I will be at yours soon..over the weekend..

see you..
devika

PS: I have a new one here.

Devika said...

Oh, Hi Deb!

I missed to greet you early...thank you so much for coming and that discerning comment...

Many saw the sadness there….you saw the power.. :-)
Yeah it was about romantic love. Genuine love-- if it were, there would be no going away even...

Egotism in love – I’m against, but may be love and life reaches a stage when one needs to serve oneself, one’s choices, priorities….and has no other option.

Thanks Deb..thanks again for coming

By the way, my Bloghounds blogroll link has been changed to my other blog --A Socio-Politially Inclined Onlooker..may be because that goes well with the group there..

You can visit me here, A Certain Kind of Woman…http://devika-jyothi.blogspot.com/ from my profile…

I have a new one at 'Certain Kind'. my experience after Delhi terrorist attack…Do read when you have time and let me know..

See you there at yours soon……..

devika

Known Stranger said...

typical way a woman hides her emotions with the googles she wear misleading men as well as herself at times. prefect expression of women

Devika said...

You call this a perfect woman?
then i am one! :)

I love the business of masking...
now, i think rather than a goggle i will chose a purdah. :))

somehow i feel, emotions retain purity, when masked...and that could be reason for the certain degree of youthfulness in me :)

but, here the scene is different, i guess! :)

wishes,
devika

Devika said...

yeah KS...

Got it right --not perfect woman..perfect expression of her :)

wishes,
devika

Known Stranger said...

yes i mentioned it as perfect expression of women. Not perfect women. When you write a post on perfect woman or ideal woman i will leave my comment on that.

Devika said...
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Devika said...

Hi KS,

That sounds like an unknown strager all of a sudden :)

anyway, I don't think i'll be posting that...

I have no strong concept of perfection -- to ME that's something which remains -- always remain -- to be achieved..

thank you,
wishes
devika